"Love is like setting yourself on fire and hope you dont get burned." quoted by cant remember.

Ok thanks Nikki! I have decided to make the outside of my car look good first and then work on the inside. so tinted windows, spoiler, rims, low profile tires, big loud muffler, ect. yea stuff like that. yea i talked to a few people about that also and got some good feed back on all that.

i cant think of anything to put tonight. I did get to work things out with a dear friend of mine. I said thing that sounded kind of bad but i didnt mean them to sound that way. i picked her up for the y and worked out. Man she is going to be hurting in the morning but its will help. after that we sat in my car and talked through it all. I feel so much better.

In many ways I want to run. I want to find a place to hide. This world is scary and full of things that I know nothing about yet. She said she was fine and it all came crashing down on her. She was hurt but would not lead on to the feeling that ate at her very exsistence. For now I can only walk more cautiously.

I think I said somethign that I shouldnt have. I opened my mouth for only wrong things to come out. I feel like trash now because of it. Im sorry....im sorry....im sorry. Assurance is such an ugly word to me now!

Man my car is so sweet! I named him Cage. What a great name for a great car. If you dont know, he is a 93 Saturn SC1.