I finally got my ipod. It is the coolest thing ever. It was totally worth theh money I spent. Yea so it was expensive, but its so cool and I can do so much with it. Its like my brand new baby. I take it everywhere and show it off to others and make them jelous of my new baby/ipod. I know that when I go home, my brother Cole is going to want one. I can jsut see it now, "Dude that is so cool! How much did you get that for, where can I get one?" Ohh well he's my brother, I have to tell him! =)

My girlfriend is great. I think she is so pretty and she likes me for me. What more could I ask for?

Wow God works in really cool ways. So I might have a new job. Yes this all happened within a couple hours. I might be able to get a job at the pharmacy for maybe 50 cents more. And the hours are really flexable around school. I need to understand perscriptions and knos this stuff as a social worker. ***I can't imagine that this might be God in all this preparing me for future things (hint hint).*** What a wonderful God I serve.

Well I have bad news. I got laid off from my job. Yea never thought I would ever be laid off, but it happened. Guess JB's Furniture isn't where I need to be. You know what though? I am really not worried about it. I was making really good money at JB's and now I am making nothing, but God has a plan and this is part of it. Im not afraid, or worried, or mad. Something will happen and it will glorify Him.

OK so Nikki called my work. It was so cool! I felt so important.... so that is deffinately a good thing. Work it sister!

So I was working back in the back of JB Furniture like usual and my bosses son was backing there working also, when all of the sudden, he got a call. It wasn't just any call either, it was his girlfriend who called him. Ohh I wish my girlfriend would call me sometime. If only she knew the number to the store was 267-6800. hmmmmmmmmmm.

It is so tough to lose a friend. Especially when they are your closest one and they are moving far away. I have had that happen a couple of times through out my life, and it kind of stinks. But you keep living, you keep moving on, you find other friends to be close with, and God ultimately has things under control. Nikki I know you will be ok and so will the close one moving away from you, God has this one.

Looking back on the stuff in here, I often wonder what Nikki's parents would think if they read all of this stuff. Maybe they should.

I am so sorry guys. I have the most beautiful girlfriend out there, and now that we are together, you are going to have to come to terms with settling with seconded best.

Suppose you were walking through an alley street and all the sudden a guy comes up to you an says, "I am going to kill you if you don't chose one of these options." The man then says, "would you rather be a fish head man and get paid $70,000 a year, or not have any arms or legs and recieve no money at all?" What would you chose?

A mentor, a friend, all gone?

My buddy Tj, that guys is great! Let me tell ya, we have been friends for about 4 or 5 years now and i can remember when I first met him. HE WAS SO ANNOYING! But we have become great friends and a spiritual tag team for God. It is so great because when I am down or have questions, Tj comes through for me. On the other hand the same thing is true when he has questions or is down. We have it worked out very well, and I am proud (in a humble way) to be his friend. Thanks God for friends.

Why is it that there is that one thing that brings all your good things down. You get a handle on life to the best of your knowledge and things are going great but then that thing you can't control rips it up and makes things foggy again. This I will never understand.

I never had a real dad in my life. In fact when I had a step dad at one time, he was so uncool and he basically was a waste of space in my mom's house. Thank the Lord that Godly men were brought around me and showed me the ropes. I want to be there for my kids, and I don't want to give them the shaft like my dad did.
Lord, if I ever become this, break my heart and show me back to the path.

Is it fair to say I love my kids already? Well I do...I have no idea what there names are (hopefully the first boy will be Noel), and I don't know what they look like, or their personalities. All I know is that it makes me want to be a real man, and it makes me want to do what is right and what will show them how to live for God.

I love you kids, whoever you are.

Am I focused on you God? Am I walking on the right road, let alone on the right side? Can you tell me God if this is my calling? Should I continue this, or should I stop and do something completely different? You know my anxious thoughts and desires God, lead me on like a child following his father.

Then Jesus replied, "YOU SHALL LOVE THE lORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, AND WITH ALL YOUR SOUL, AND WITH ALL YOUR MIND."

I love those Goshen kids! There so gosh darn cool. By the way, if you have no idea what i am talking about, they are the kids at the youth group I intern at. This is my second year teaching them, but this year I make up the lessons too. I also get to play in the praise band again this year. Last night was really good. The band jsut sounded really good and I personally felt really close to God when I played. You know what else is so cool? Nikki (you know, the amazing Godly women in my life) is coming now with me. She is going to have her own group and be a small gorup leader like I was last year. I am so happy to be doing ministry with her. Something no one else did with me. A totally new experiance.

My roommate can be a real jerk sometimes. I honestly don't have a clue as to what to say to him sometimes. He has some real problems (don't we all) and he just doesnt deal with them. Don't know where this learned behavior came from exactly, but something needs to happen jurastic in his life for him to start doing something about it. Prayer is cool! I love ya roomy, but dang it you need to deal with stuff!

Ok back to the Frank Sanatra stuff. Man I tell ya, this stuff is so relaxing and calming. I totally feel at peace. This is quite strange to me, but if this helps with the stresses of college or life then I am totally game! COUNT ME IN FRANKY!

School is going really well, I totally thought I would be swamped but the core classes are not so. I am learning a lot, but I have come to a sad realization............I have to learn how to write. Or else the world says that I can't function pretty much. That really stinks that the people who can talk and be in front of people dont do as well in school as those who can pound out a paper with no errors. I suck at writting papers, but you know what i can stand in front of a group and talk about whatever. Ohh well the world is full of disappointments sometimes. I wont let my disability get me down!

Strange sensations from the past.......I am listening to Frank Sanatra and I am actually enjoying it. Its pretty good stuff I recommend it.

(say like strong bad) So there is this like crazy stupid website that says these really stupid slogans if you put a word in. For example I put in the word foot and it comes up with, "The more foot you have the more happier you are." Pretty stupid cool huh? check it out.

My girlfriend is the best! I don't have a specific reason to tell you why except for the fact that she makes my heart skip a beat when I see her.

I have an awful lot of collateral reading to do this semester, and I think it best that maybe I crawl under a rock with all the reading so that no one can bother me as I read a crap load of stuff. So if you find any good rocks let me know!

So about the muffler thing, yea I didnt use the thing I got in the mail, I cherry bombed it and tiped it. Its pretty cool. Even Nikki likes the sound and look. Which is pretty cool!

Wow its been awhile since I have done this so here is a post, there will be more.

ive got an excellen new muffler coming in the mail...it is goign to make my car louder, faster, and more efficient(better gas mileage)...isnt that great!

The nice weather is coming, that is so exciting......my car no longer looks funny sliding around in the stupid snow....yes i said it, the snow is stupid with no brains.

shoes, fat clothes, eye lash curlers, and estrogen....honestly I don"t understand it....I mean if you put your jeans in the dryer, they shrink and you cant wear them............THATS WACK!

Kegal exercise.......im not suppossed to talk about it so I wont......

your eyes are like shimmering rivers, and your hair........ok so im not in the mood to write romantic stuff.....im sorry for all you Die Hard Noel fans out there!

I still want my sexy hugs!!!!!

Holy wow! My girlfriend looks so good today. Ok so she is this beautiful angel, right? well when she started working at alpha they gave her.... "The alpha shirt" which looks bad on almost everyone cause they are extra huge for extra not huge people. and at first i didnt like the shirt on her, i dont think she liked it either. But teh miricle of a washer and dryer can do wonders for those huge cotton shirts. Nikki looked so wonderful. ok im done =)

I really dont think God had sleep in His plan for me this week. Im not complaining though, its ok, because he is doing miraculous things in my life. But I don't seem myself then you will know why.

One great thing that ever young boy longs for is a chance to feel love from his dad....i dont know who all knows me that well but my dad was not around cause there was a divorce and he didnt do much. he never came to any of my stuff and sometimes i only saw him at Chrsitmas time. but recently, well the past year i have gotten really close with my dad, and when we talk it turns to spiritual things, and i jsut had this great talk with him this evening. he is asking me the questions and The holy spirit is talking through me. its so wonderful, and feels so good to disciple with my dad. Thanks GOD

Life is goign really great, I might be an RA next year in Kent....thats cool. my RA came to me and told me that they were hurting for them and said i would be a good candidate, so i am going for it. thanks for the support.

I waited until i thought it was right and i asked Janice Nicole Downs out in a heart shape on the lake on her birthday (january 28, yep you missed it!) right after i had her go on a scavenger hunt to all the important places of our lives.....wow that sounds a little weird, you know like the first place we met and things like that.......great stuff....ill never forget her shining face when she said yes.....a complete overwelming look, i knew that she had been waiting for me on this for awhile...its great to hear everyone tell me that its about time....but i know i did it in the righ timing

Wow it has been so long since i did this. so here i go, im going to type a bunch of life lessons and comments about my beautiful girlfriend.

its been awhile since i put anythign in here. so i am now. I got my own room in Gamma now and i am loving it. I miss jimmy but the extra room is fabulous. OK so i am going to go now. i will write later.